HURT MY BACK

Okay so I hurt my back while chasing after bus 75 this morning in order not to be late. I ran at top speed and slipped and fell right in the center of the bus interchange. Embarrassment aside, the first thing that popped into my head was literally: WHAT IF I CANNOT FENCE ANYMORE?! Then the next, more practical thought popped up: WHAT IF I CANNOT WALK ANYMORE?!

I will NEVER run after a bus anymore. This fall is enough to last me a lifetime and i'd be grateful if I don't have any internal injuries from that fall. I ran too fast, slipped too fast, and I slammed right onto the floor, back first. No joke. The pain was WOW. Sat on the floor for a few moments to let the pain go away before I could stand up again. And the pain is just there for the rest of the day, till now, as i'm typing. Mum said it's going to be much worse within the next few days and I have this feeling that i'm gonna have to skip training on thursday if I really want my back. As much as I don't want to skip trainings, I really can't help it this time round. My back is still the most important one. Going to go for a checkup soon to check for any injuries that I may not know of. And I hope there isn't of course. 

I'm super angry with myself. I shouldn't have fell and I should have been able to engage in fencing and stuff but stupid enough, I have to fall at this point of time and hinder my schedule. I dumped my shoes away and WILL NEVER RUN AFTER A BUS. I hate my shoes for being part of the reason why I fell. What's done cannot be undone and i'm feeling so so so bad. I want so badly to turn back time and I would never have ran after the bus. 

IDIOT.