2012 is coming to an end really really quickly. In just a few more hours' time it would be the start of 2013. I'm really looking forward to it just like how I looked forward to Christmas and now that it has passed, its the next "event" in line that i'm looking forward to. Loving new starts as always~
2012 has been quite an eventful year for me, with a lot of things going on in my life one after another. I still remember rather vividly the first time I worked with Jiayun, Kaeli and Delia at a factory at Jurong Port road during the start of the year and being the first one to quit the job cos it was very tiring and I thought I couldn't take it anymore but now that I think back, I probably should hang in there a little longer. Could have earned a bit more money! Hahaha. Oh! And the mixed rice uncle that is so cute, forever knowing what I want to order for lunch and the few of us sitting on the stairs eating our lunch and chatting.. Those times. :')
Then finally O levels results are out and I did pretty average, not anything fantastic but yet acceptable enough to get me into a relatively okay course in Ngee Ann Polytechnic. Choosing my course was like the toughest thing ever, like my life literally depended on it. I mean it does make sense that my life depends on where I go but that actually refers to where it'll lead me to in the future. Finally ended myself up in Chemical and Biomolecular Engineering when I failed my JPSAE interview despite putting in so freaking much effort into preparing what to say to their possible questions that could be bombarded at me as well as my portfolio which I think I ought to do better in making it seem more fantastic. To be very honest, i'm definitely not someone that has done a whole lot of special things or special achievements throughout the current 17 years of my life. Haha. Probably should start doing some stuff worth remembering about!
School started in April and I was thrown into this new environment with new people and none of my friends were with me. I wanted to become more sociable by the end of this year but it seems to backfire pretty badly. Haha. I'm not extremely close with the people in my class and i'm probably considered as the loner in my class and its really something that I would like to reflect on by the end of this year and something that I would want to improve on in 2013. Fortunately, I found people whom I can be comfortable with and get close with in my CCA and I guess that's not too bad after all huh. Found something that i've been longing to do since primary 4 or 6 and am finally doing it is quite an accomplishment. Heh.
Then came the first semester's common tests and final exams which I screwed up pretty badly and I became really lacked of confidence. I got lost for a while and needed time to pick myself up again which I haven't really done so till now. I still feel that I am not good enough for a lot of things and I can't make myself feel useful sometimes. Especially in terms of academics and in fencing. Had my very first competition this year and 2 others following but all was in vain. This is when I get reminded of the fact that i'm not good enough. But oh wells. Never have I been good enough in anything.
Some bigger and more memorable events this year would be the Epee BBQ at ECP and the recent NPF Christmas gathering at Signature Park condominium and returning back to Fuhua to have a meetup with our ex teachers, going for Yongchee's passing out parade, NPF bonding camp, NPF training camp, ohhh and at the very start of the year's LSCT FOC, etc! (whoa thats pretty much!)
End of the year, some things have changed, I have changed, people around me have changed, but new things have been happening every day and I look forward to each coming day as always, probably with a bigger than ever heart, or maybe with a less positive mindset. We can't stay positive forever right? There are bound to be days when we are down and when everything just doesn't seem to go the way we want it to go. But be blessed that we are given the opportunity to live, to be on this revolving planet, despite the fact that we may face challenges all the time.
With every person that dislikes you, there'll be someone who loves you. With every challenge you face, there'll be a solution for a way out. With every sadness you may experience, there'll be a smile awaiting behind that tear. So don't worry. 2013 will be a blast. :)
I thank whoever, whatever that contributed to my experiences in the year of 2012, making me grow, mature, learn, cry, smile, experience, endured and loved. I cherish what I have more than ever because I know that they don't come easy and should not be taken for granted. I look forward to the new things that may happen in the new year as well as the new people that I may meet.
May 2013 be a blast for everyone. :)
Cheers! Happy holidays and happy new year! ♥
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