LOVING YOURSELF

Oh well~ I know its like super early now but i'm just waiting to go to school so..

Saw this video up on my subscription list when I pop by Youtube to check things out a bit after checking my mail. And the title drew me in like almost immediately. "Love yourself".

Just ytd, I was watching 美乐加油 at home on channel U with my mum cos it was on repeat at 1pm. And it dawned on me that probably it really is the right thing to start loving myself before even expecting anybody else to love me. Cos in the show, there's this always selfless 查美乐 being enlightened by 韩以烈 (not sure if its the right word here but oh well.) and she realised that she found the type of coffee that she liked and not just drinking whatever other people liked. 韩以烈 made her realised the importance of being able to make her own decisions and just do what she liked doing. Making a choice that she would be happy about and not just being happy cos others are happy. Cos nobody would love a person who doesn't know how to love herself. And she was enlightened. So am I.

Seeing this video today just adds on to the enlightenment more. It made me really wonder if I should start loving myself more and learn to make the decisions of my choice. I guess i'm so used to following others' decisions because I feel protected in a way when I know that there is somebody I can fall back on and rely on. They will help me and decide for me whatever that seemed the best for me. I really think this is the reason behind everything. 

So when people say "I don't know" it made me panic a little on the inside. It actually feels like I lost the person that I can fall back on, at least momentarily. I know it sounds absolutely crazy but I guess that just how things go inside me. Anw, i'd love to make myself feel protected in another way rather than what I mentioned above. It probably then fit the convention way of loving myself I guess. Making decisions every now and then wouldn't seem that bad at all. :)

So.. back to the video, you wouldn't find that she's perfect in speech or whatever, but I find her getting the message across in a very true manner, it makes me think that she's someone that stays true to herself and really is in the process of loving herself and trying to get rid of her insecurities. Not that its an easy task but at least she's trying. And I really loved the way she presented herself in the video. It feels different. 

I guess today's like a more cheered up me writing a blogpost. So have a good day. :)