I felt really happy to see that my heartfelt gratitude and thoughts actually managed to be gotten across to whoever it was meant to be. Cos I know how it feels to know how much of an impact you've been in someone's life. Furthermore, this time it was absolutely unintentional and it really put a smile on my face when I saw that comment. It felt magical, somewhat. If it even makes sense.
Anw, I recently came to realise what I deemed as a morally right person, in terms of behavior and character, is not too much to ask for.
Its like I used to think that smoking, drinking, clubbing and whatnot, is not the kind of lifestyle that we should be leading and I actually ever promised that I would never touch smoke or alcohol when I was alot younger. A lifestyle without all that I mentioned would be the ideal lifestyle that I wanted to lead and hope to influence people around me to stay healthy and lead the same kind of lifestyle that I deemed as "good" and "morally right".
But guess what. As I grew up, I realised that I am exposed to a lot of people that actually smoke on a regular basis and even drink. Initially I thought. Why would anyone want to do that? Its not right. But as time passed, I honestly got influenced and I slowly began to change my mindset towards what I used to believe in, at least for the drinking and clubbing part. I thought then, its probably okay to drink every now and then, I would need to know how to drink a little when I enter the society, when I go to work. And for clubbing wise, I began thinking that it's probably fine to have fun and let loose every once in a while isn't it? I realised that I no longer find that this kind of lifestyle is something that I shouldn't be doing and I was accepting it as a way of life subconsciously.
But now, as I started pondering over this issue again, I came to a conclusion that no its not okay to drink, to smoke or to frequent clubs and whatnot. I was influenced by the people around me and it changed my mindset for a little bit in between but now i'm back to square one again. I do not encourage people to drink or smoke, or even frequent clubs. But I got to realise that no one is restricted or made to follow the "morally right" way of living and its not a compulsory thing for anyone. As humans, we have a choice to decide what we want to do and I do not discriminate people that drink or smoke even though I don't lead the same kind of lifestyle. I respect them and the lifestyle that they lead and i'm perfectly fine with being really good friends them and I appreciate them all the same. Its about acceptance in the society.
I am responsible only for my actions and character and that is what I should be concerned about and only that. There are many ways of drinking and as long as alcohol isn't abused, i'm kind of fine with it but then again good for me cos I don't appreciate the way alcohol taste like. And I will definitely still stay smoke free for the rest of my life. For that, I dare to say. Letting loose wise, its okay to have fun. But I know for sure that I won't frequent clubs and whatnot. I trust that there are many other ways to have fun in life. :)
I'm really happy to have found a way to compromise everything and sort things out in my mind. :)
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