MY VERY FIRST BEST FRIEND I EVER HAD.

I had a super good friend years back and we had the plans to carry our friendship to as far as possible. And I thought it could very well last me a lifetime and I guess i'm still right regarding that. I happened to think about her all of a sudden lately and man.. I could have cried. I miss her... So damn much. 

This special girl in my life.. Nadine Wong Yu Zhen. We were friends since more than a decade back and we are still friends. Probably not super close anymore cos we were separated ever since we entered different secondary schools and now she's in Nanyang JC while i'm in NgeeAnn Poly but I have the faith that if we were to give ourselves enough time to get close to each other again, we will be able to find the level of comfort that we once had. All over again. 

She's such an awesome girl and I feel more than just blessed to have her in my life. She was there with me when I was all alone, being the supposedly anti social and shy me when I was young. We used to fight a lot when we were like super young in kindergarten and we often had the "I don't want to friend you alr luh" coming from us but we always managed to make it up. Probably I knew that there was no way that I could lose this person as a friend. Back in primary school, she always stood up for me and was there for me when I cried or when other people bullied me. She was there for me all the time and I felt that the kind of friendship and the level of dependance we had for each other was really pure and I miss it. I miss the feeling of being protected by her and knowing that I would be safe cos she'd be there to fend off bullies and she'd be there to wipe my tears away.

Nadine never despise me cos I wasn't pretty. And she didn't change even after becoming a prefect in primary school. She was the first person to accept me for who I am and in the purest and most innocent manner, became my friend and stood by me. She had lunch with me despite having prefects' duties after recess and had to rush off. There are just way too many things that she'd done for me and I know that I should start contacting her soon. It's been a pretty long time since we've last saw each other and I feel the awkwardness setting in. But i'm really not afraid. I know we'd be back tgt again for sure. 

She mean a ton to me. And I genuinely miss her alot. She's the perfect angel in my life. Someone that didn't judge me for what I looked like. Mushroom head or not. Face cui like anything and she's still fine with it. She used to know EVERYTHING about me and now, 15 years into the future, I want to know everything that I possibly can know, about her current life. I want to protect her, and feel protected by her again. I want to make the friendship last truly a lifetime. 

Sometimes I wished that we had chosen the exact same route. We'd probably still be super close right now. But then again, being apart for such a long time made me realised her importance to me and I appreciate it too. She is important. 

And other than her, I feel like, and i'm proud to say that there are a few more ppl in my life at this current moment that shares a certain level of importance to me too. :)

So indeed. I am a really lucky girl after all.

HOPES DASHED.

My hopes are dashed. To think that I can't fulfill the plan that we had. I disappointed you and myself. I don't know how to go on from here. How?? 

But yet to know that someone is there for me when I needed it the most. 

Probably its something to smile about despite the tears.

BACK TO SCHOOL.

Hello! 

Tomorrow is yet another back-to-school day that i'm looking forward to. Surprisingly. I'm not exactly sure what i'm looking forward to but I just am. Probably its cos of the modules that i'm taking this semester. I have quite a substantial amount of modules this coming semester, I don't really know if all of them are examinable or not but from what I know, there are about 6 in total, not including my IS modules. *omg* But, my timetable looks pretty decent still. So i'm actually not too worried. 

Okay maybe I should be worried cos I was told that life is not easy in my course. But there are a few modules that i'm really looking forward to. Namely, engineering materials, environmental technology and occupational health and safety. I think these are the few "cooler" modules out of the 6 "official course modules" that I have. Or at least they make me interested in it just by looking at the name of the modules. Unlike the past 2 semesters, where there were basically nothing that triggered my interest in at all. How pathetic omg. 

Oh well~ I'm determined to lose weight this semester onwards actually. I probably might have mentioned about this "determination" before long ago but then again, I really did make an effort this time! So give me some credits for that, given that I proofed that I am not someone who just say something and not do it. I made my words into actions this time! Hehe. Cutting down on carbs this time and trying to lower the size of the portion of my meals basically. And of course together with regular exercises luh duh~ I feel like I can see some difference in myself but then again, this could be an error that my eyes made. So I shall leave the judging part to others. And if possible, I wish to get abs~~ I know it will feel damn good to see the "washboard abs" on myself but i'm not too sure if it is even possible. Haha. I find it so hard to stay lean, not to mention becoming lean from something like me. Zzzz.

Anyways, you've just got to try everything out to see if it works luh. Never try never know. I have 6 months for me to become fit and look fit. So maybe from now till later in october i'll keep a lookout for my "washboard" Hahaha 

*laughing at myself for even thinking that I can do it* Hmm.. Maybe got 2 alr very good. Let's not be over demanding of ourselves. :)

That's all for now~ I really want to get back to school right now! :D 

Goodluck to the rest returning back to school too! ♥

WALKING THE TALK.

"How can one decided to quit school teach about resilience? How can one influence positively when their lifestyle is uncalled for? When we don't practise what we preach we are simply hypocrite. Do what we mean, mean what we do. If don't mean it, don't do. Walking the talk is important. There are some topics I won't teach, not because I don't think is important but is because I have not practise in my own life. Never teach something you know but you don't practise, teach something that you believe and practise - because you don't need to teach, you just need to influence with your reputation and credibility. That is important." -- Delane Lim

I saw this status on facebook just a few moments ago and I felt that it is something really worth sharing, to allow us to have a chance to think through these wise words and maybe change us for the better. 

Delane Lim is a man which I look up upon since I first met him during the Batam camp when I was in secondary three. He is a man whom I think has the capability to make an impact on others' life and leads by example. Every now and then I come across newly updated facebook statuses by him and stop to ponder over his words. It seems to be his nature to be able to inject meaning to simple words and be an inspiration to the people around him. I wouldn't deny, that the batam camp a few years back, was partly what molded me into who I am today. 

I wish to become a man of credibility one day and to be able to make an impact on others' lives as well.  

Every single day in the past is the reason behind who you are today. Lead by example. To your juniors, friends, family, and one day, many years down the road, your children as well. Guess that will make life much more worthwhile.

TWISTER

Hello! 

Haven't been updating much lately cos i've been working a lot basically throughout the whole of march and I believe that working life isn't really something worth mentioning about. Well at least for mine. Recently just ended my job on the 1st of April. Nope its not an april fool's joke. Haha. Kk that's kind of lame I know. :P 

Earned quite a bit of money / extra allowance since I wasn't given any during the holidays. And i've decided to try to live off myself starting from the next sem onwards. I'm going to get myself a part time job and see if I can cope with all that commitments. Like school, fencing, work, family, friends etc. Its what I want to do to rely on myself and save up for the future and also a way to test my limits. I know its going to be damn tough trying to work and study at the same time but I feel like its time for me to pick up more responsibilities as the only child, also for myself. I want to start being independent in order not to have a "shock" when I really enter the workforce / society in just a few years' time. Time passes crazy fast. I'm turning 20 in just 2 years time. 

Fortunately, I have support from people around me in the sense that I have jiayun who's also wanting to depend on herself and try to live off herself. So if nothing goes wrong, we may be working together and working towards our  so called "common goal". Sometimes, in whatever you decide to do, we all need that extra boost of support from people around us, people who love us, to keep us going. 

Anyways, i'm going over to JP in just a few hours' time to try out the skills and services from TWISTER, the hair salon under the Monsoon Hair Group. I know it isn't the best option if money is involved but i've persuaded myself to just go ahead and give it a try to see the difference between neighbourhood salons and some sort of "atas" salons. And so i'm definitely going to have to part with some of my hard-earned money. I just hope that it will be worth the money cos i'll be really depressed if it doesn't live up to its name and what not. Bringing my hopes up really high now. I'm leaving it to fate to see if my hopes stays where it should be or it'll be dashed. Wish me luck!

photo form google.

Adding on, tomorrow is NPF's BBQ over at ECP, similar to the previous epee BBQ but with a lot more people present. I'm kind of sure that it'll be fun actually. Haha how can there be no fun when the whole of NPF is around right? Well at least they are the people that makes me feel the most accepted in NP. :)