为了让自己留下最后仅有的尊严，我坚持不在你面前显示自己的懦弱，虽然自己心里知道放手是有多么的不可能。尽管只能以朋友的身份也好。无所谓。。也许我就是那么懦弱。

但唯一肯定的是，我会活得更好，我会更爱自己。

忍了很久的眼泪今晚完全不受我的控制。希望这是最后一次。我会把掌控全拿回来的。

明天会更好。晚安。

This fucking hurts. I need this to be over right now.

Don't know what's running through my mind. Don't know what i'm feeling at all. Wondering what I did to deserve this. 

太晚我才懂，爱了你太多。

不再为谁付出真心。

PASSER-BY

Nothing seems as hard as I thought it would be. After all, you are but another passerby in my life. Doing what everyone else does. Walk in, and then leave. 

The person that I was in the past would probably feel inferior. I'd probably think i'm not comparable to any other girls out there. But no, not the same person now. The person that I am right now will just shrug my shoulders and say "i'm sorry but you're missing out on what I can give and what I will give." 

I refuse to give my heart to someone that doesn't know how to cherish and love me anymore. I guess I just grew to realise my self worth over time. I don't even know what I feel right now. I should be sad, but nope. I'm not. I'm not sad. I'm hurt. As much as I don't want to admit that i'm hurt, I really am. BUT, I refuse to say that by leaving me, you affect me. Cos you don't. I won't allow myself to be affected anymore. I used to be weak. I used to be easily affected. But not now. Not ever.

One week. I'm done. Over and done.

You made me feel more loved than i've ever felt. And you made me feel more pain than what I thought I could take. 

Trust nobody with yourself other than yourself. 

Cos nobody can ever love you the way you love yourself.