THAT UNICORN FEELZ

Hey there! 

I'm gonna have to give myself a pat on the back for the consistent writing lately. (Let's just hope this stays as it is LOL) Nothing much's going on today, I just completed my very first paper in more than half a year's time. It's insane, having to cram stuff into my head again. So not used to it at the beginning but i'm getting the hang of it again. And, I honestly just can't wait till CTs are over cos i've got shitloads of plans coming up for myself and i'm literally dying to start. CAN'T WAIT. 

So... the first thing on my mind is definitely gonna be my plans to start acrylic painting. And i've actually began talking to a few of my friends about it today. Just a random mention. Nothing too crazy detailed but they weren't really that into that conversation that I brought up regarding acrylic painting I guess. LOL Well, I can't really blame them for that. I'm always the one that is unable to contribute to any conversation regarding gaming anyways. But one of them actually said that it'll be better if I start from drawing with pencils, then pens, then markers before I dive right into painting but I actually beg to differ. 

I started with drawing a while back and I thought it was okay. It was definitely really satisfying when I complete a particular drawing but now that I think about it, I think just sketching and drawing and doodling doesn't appeal to me as much now cos it's so dull with just shades of black and white. I'm not saying that I don't like drawing anymore, in fact I still doodle a lot in class with just black pen and my lecture notes. It's just that i'm really feeling it for acrylic painting right now and I think it's rare that I feel so strongly about something so even if it's just a temporary burst of interest, curiosity or passion, I want to grasp it very tightly and basically make the most out of this sudden burst of energy. Or whatever that is. I think years down the road, i'm gonna have to thank myself for making this decision right now. 

I guess i'm just all about living the life that I want at the moment. And I think I start to gravitate towards painting because of the colours that I can produce with paint. Its just so infinite and so flexible when it comes to paints. Its almost like I see these incredible colours in my life at the moment and I want to be able to reflect it all through paint. I see myself gravitating away from the dark days for the most part of 2014 and i'm genuinely happy to know that i'm happy. Like I feel a lot lighter recently and i'm really enjoying every moment with my friends in school and even moments when i'm alone. I'm beginning to really think that its really important to be able to be happy with yourself. I don't know what the future may bring but i'm definitely enjoying the single life right now, just doing whatever I want to, pursuing my interest and getting to know more about myself, my likes and dislikes, pretty much just living a better version of me. :)

Also, my heart is telling me that I want to travel. I want to travel to somewhere far, somewhere that i've yet to visit. And what I have in mind at the moment is probably UK, US or Australia. I can either go to UK after I graduate to look for my friend that's studying at Durham or I can find a partner to go over to the united states or australia with me. I'm actually pretty clueless about why I want to visit these places but I know that i'm gonna enjoy it. I've actually imagined myself stepping out of the airport into a foreign land and taking in the first breath of air in another country and be like crazy happy about it. This is me I guess. I don't need a ton of different itinerary, rushing from place to place to look at stuff. I just want to fly over, take my time to walk around, take in all that's available to my senses at my pace and relax. I'm definitely wanting to do this in the near future. In fact, I wouldn't mind travelling alone. It would be a very refreshing and eyeopening experience personally. Its a nice way to start anew when I return. :)

My thoughts today are just full of excitement and very much all over the place. I somewhat feel like a crazy hopping unicorn right now. LOL But i'm really happy~ Probably that's why.^^ I can foresee myself having a nice workout tomorrow morning and maybe make a trip to ArtFriend again? We'll see. ;)

J.

xoxo